“Who is this one that comes from the desert supported
by her beloved? ” (Ct 8,5) 

My time of formation

 Fascinated by Jesus Crucified, the Man who has realized in history the Plan of God the Father and who has given his Life to restore his Kingdom of Love, I began to look for my place in this design within the concrete history of my life.

I went through a long discernment before entering Carmel, letting myself be lead by He who has promised to us to always be with us, this conviction has been the force that has sustained me throughout all my days: God is always there and He never abandons us!

Once I entered Carmel, happy of to have found my place, I was astonished to discover that the discernment and the search continue. The liturgical formation, the monastic chant, the prolonged time to be alone with God helped me during the “postulancy” to make the transition between the style of agitated life of the modern world and the demands of the working world, towards the forms of a quiet life, of a withdrawal where the importance is not placed on doing things, but in the attitude of inner listening to look for to respond in everything to the Will of God.

The silence and the solitude of Carmel allowed me to deepen the personal experience of friendship with God that is the nucleus of Carmelite spirituality, an experience that becomes rich with the passage of the days it and opens to you the unfathomable beauty of the Love of God.

Carmel has also allowed me to discover Mary as  sister and friend, and not only like Mother, which was the experience that I had brought. Mary in Carmel becomes your confidant. It was a happiness to let me be clothed with her Scapular at the time of the investiture, when with the aid of the spiritual director and the Mistress of Postulants we discerned that the lifestyle of Carmel corresponded to the specific personal call that God made me.

During the Novitiate, the relationship with the Mistress and novitiate companions was fundamental to discover in a greater degree the ecclesial dimension Carmel under the forms of community life. Community life and prayer are both pillars of our life. The reading and the systematic study of our holy mother St Teresa and holy father St John of the Cross. The combination of these factors favored self-knowledge and an encounter with the great Mercy of God. Misery and Mercy come face to face. To find in the Crucified Jesus the Heart of the Merciful Father, Source of Mercy and pardon available to all men. To arrive to the time for the profession of vows in the context of this experience allowed me to discover that it is the Mercy and Fidelity of God that consecrates to us and in that new alliance God renews hiss fidelity to all the Church. I felt and I feel very little against the greatness of this Mystery of Love.

With the vows a new relation with the community begins, one feels as belonging to the community, I discovered the community as the place of encounter with God, the community is a gift of God where he speaks to you. In this period the Lord approached with a new invitation, to leave my country, my community, my family to come to Nazareth. I discovered that Work of God has in its entrails bits of Cross. It carries the mystery of pain, crisis, suffering, it is to live the dichotomy: the spirit is prompt but the flesh is weak. I left the decision to my community who believed advisable my definitive transfer here to Nazareth. Therefore, the Carmel of Bogota, sent to me to continue my formation in the Carmel of the Sacred Family in Nazareth. Only God knows his own work. One carries it, suffers it, enjoys it, but hardly sees its fruit. I learned to embrace the Cross of the Lord, and the more I embrace and accept it, the more I discover the mystery of Love hidden in my life.

To make my solemn vows in Nazareth has been for me a very great grace, here I am marveled to see the greatness of the Love of God with its poor and weak creature, to be surrounded by the grace of the Mystery of the Incarnation, in a Marian place par excellence, a community of 16 sisters comings from 12 different countries with diverse mentalities and ages but all with a unique objective: “Union with God”.

My community is a gift of God, I find myself surrounded by sisters that want to help me, of friendly faces that affirm the Love of God, with the Community I discern the Will of God that is realized in the history within which we feel called to live our personal and community lives in favor of the Church and of the entire world. We are summoned to live our vocation as Carmelite in Nazareth and we feel united by the bond of a particular mission in favor of the local Church of Jerusalem and these people in the Holy Land, without forgetting that they have within them the feeling of  UNITY AND UNIVERSALITY.

Sr. Maria Cecilia of the Divine Mercy (Colombian)
Carmelite of Nazareth